Emotional Eating Journal Day 5 & Real Talk

8/11/2020 12:55PM

Today was emotional. It started with body pain, and extreme fatigue from lack of sleep last night. Something has been bothering me all day, and is becoming toxic. When reaching 30 pounds down, and my "old self" kicked in. I'm still fighting it. By "old self" what I mean is, quitting before getting my heart involved. That little piece is still there saying that "this is as good as it gets, and it was fun while it lasted, but bread and cake is waiting to comfort you."

There's a quote that goes something like...Ask yourself are you hungry or bored? Take a drink of water. That's what I did, and started writing. Wow this emotional eating journal is getting to me on a subconscious level, I shed a tear of relief after saying that. In the morning this mental funk will pass, and I'll be ready to go! There's still work to do. I refuse to quit! Everything I want is on the other side of these pounds. Re-focus, find your center, and keep going. That was my pep-talk to myself, but if it works for anyone else, then bonus points!

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Emotional Eating Journal Day 5:

How can I invest in myself, my health, and my joy this year?

• Health and wellness are my main priorities, so let's start there. I've made some strong choices for my health this year. Including starting this blog. I need to remind myself that this is a long-term journey every single day. Retrain my brain towards positive body nourishment. No additional health issues are going on my list! In fact, I'd love to remove a few.

• Joy is difficult to achieve when you don't have all your ducks in a row. Life is unstable for me, as it is for many. A big part of finding my joy begins with my financial and mental freedom. As long as I'm working towards achieving that, I can savor joy every day. Other forms of joy are weight loss victories, inspiring anyone, doing something productive, working on some projects. But the best joy is within. Applauding myself for the changes I've made, and being proud of my son while thinking, "I made that boy, and he's a great human being." Lastly, taking the time to breathe and enjoy nature, brings me joy and clarity.

• Investing in myself starts with self worth. If I view my worth as small, how can I ask the world to value me? Affirmations, journaling, self care, learning new things, being productive all aid me in my self investment.